every day I wonder if you were worth giving up
it you meant enough to me to give you another chance
to make my heart whole again
What I have to remember is that
whatever is forgiven, is never forgotten
and what we have was great,
but that dark looming cloud of deceit,
pain, lies and cheating
will always hang above us.
I don't want to be forgotten,
I don't want you to move on
but I will never be able to ignore what has happened.
I love you,
I miss you.
I lost you.

i hope this old train breaks down

Why do i wake up every morning
with this bad feeling looming over my head?
It runs through my veins and drives me insane
I’m sure there’s something wrong with me,
I just don’t know what it is
I feel lost, angry,
and utterly hopeless in this huge world we’re in
I can’t do anything more than be present,
but I’m not really there at all.
My mind has imploded with thoughts,
dreams,
and memories.
Im incapable of doing anything,
just an empty shell shot out of a gun.
Tell me,
how long must this go on?